The first nineteen years of my life, nothing happened. Nothing at all, not ever. And then I met a man called the Doctor. A man who could change his face. And he took me away from home in his magical machine. He showed me the whole of time and space. I thought it would never end.
That is so accurate to my life, except I’m eighteen. For a little less than an hour an episode, he would take me away to these extraordinary worlds and I would forget all of my problems. I hated turning off my laptop and having to stop watching because I just wanted to keep exploring. I am so happy while watching Doctor Who.
No, I didn’t mean that. But it was, it was a better life. I don’t mean all the travelling and seeing aliens and spaceships and things. That don’t matter. The Doctor showed me a better way of living your life. You know, he showed you too. You don’t just give up. You don’t just let things happen. You make a stand. You say “no.” You have the guts to do what’s right when everyone else just runs away! and I just can’t…!
He taught me everything he taught Rose: don’t give up, don’t just let things happen, make a stand! He gives me courage to stand up for myself and for things I believe in. I just remember “The Doctor wouldn’t want any living being to feel like this” and that helps me turn things around.
Rose: Why no emotions?The Doctor: Because it hurts.
But of course things hurt. Everything hurts. But so what? Shit happens and emotions hurt. But if I learned one thing from the Daleks, it’s that it’s better to have emotions than to not at all. Of course I hate my emotions sometimes, but at least I know I can feel something. And if I can feel that much pain, then I know I can feel just as much happiness.
I’ve seen fake gods and bad gods and demigods and would-be gods; out of all that, out of that whole pantheon, if I believe in one thing… just one thing… I believe in her.
The Doctor’s faith in Rose inspires me to be somebody’s Rose. I want to mean that much to someone. I know it’s possible. Every girl deserves to be treated like someone’s Rose. He’s inspired me to find someone who will love me as much, not settle for someone who is going to treat me like shit. If Rose can find love, then why can’t I?
When you’re a kid, they tell you it’s all “grow up. Get a job. Get married. Get a house. Have a kid, and that’s it.” But the truth is, the world is so much stranger than that. It’s so much darker. And so much madder. And so much better.
The Doctor showed me there is more to life than just school, work, job, kids, death. There is so much more out there and he has inspired me to go find it. For a while, I was just going to give up. I was going to forget all of my dreams and just settle down with the first person who came my way. BUT NO. I’m going to go out there and explore. I’m not just going to give up. There is so much more to life than what I know right now, and I intend to find it.